...and I'm half afraid it is from a unicorn horn.
I've lurked on this board for a little over a year now. I hope I know what to expect. I love your strong spines and I've laughed, cried, felt stabby, etc right along with you even though I've been quiet until now. I feel like you will "get" me in a way most people IRL don't.
My mother is your typical narcissist, nothing is ever her fault, she is always the victim...you ladies know the drill. I believe she also has Borderline Personality Disorder, but that's not really been diagnosed. She is even ordained clergy in a church of hate. I love her so. 
In 2001 I CO my mom for good (man, I wish I knew about this board then!!) and I've not talked to her since.
I finally have my shit together (for the most part). I'm almost 40, incredibly happily married for almost 10 years, and we finally got our rainbow baby in Feb!
My first thought after the BFP was, "PLEEEEEEEEASE be a boy." I generally have a hard time making friends with and trusting women. I know this is all based on my asshole of a mother, but the thought of having a daughter scared me to death. I don't know why I thought it would be easier for me to have a boy. So of course, I now am Mommy to the most amazing little girl. Yes, I know she is only 6mo, but I'm still in awe of her and can't believe she is here.
I've read about 90% of the books listed in the sticky, done my time in therapy. My question is this...
Does it scare you, as mothers, to have daugthers of your own? I'm terrified of turning into my own mother. Did having your own LOs bring up all the feelings of inadequecy, hurt and anger? Were you enraged all over again because looking at their sweet little faces made you think about your own mother doing the same "once upon a time" and turning into the monster she did? My mom doesn't get along with her own mother, and I'm sure she told herself at one point, "I would never treat Ears like that." I know I've promised my LO.
I've not really noticed a post like this, so I wanted to ask. Are you afraid of being BSC someday? Is my LO too new? Am I too emotional still? I'm confident in my abilities and trust myself as LOs mother in every way, except for this one.
Not hairflipping, just leaving working for the day. I don't know if I can update on my phone, which is how I normally get my DWIL.