I made a new screen name to post this. I'm a long time lurker, occasional commenter, and now I'm hoping you ladies can help me slay my unicorn.
My MOO is crazy. I don't even know where to start so please forgive me if I seem to jump around, I'm exhausted and have a hard time putting my thoughts down.
BG: My mother is a mean alcoholic who only cares about herself. When I was 17 she met a tattoo artist and left this guy who was madly in love with her to be with him. She got pregnant and decided to leave her 17 year old by herself with nowhere to go and move across the country. She said that this is her chance to "do one right". A year later I wanted to get away from my toxic hometown and moved in with her and her BF for a while. It lasted about two months until I left because I'd rather be on the streets than be with her. I ended up couch hopping for a while then I met my husband, got married, had a baby, and all that good stuff.
I guess that isn't exactly relevant, but I want you to know how she is.
For years she and the BF have been going back and forth. She thinks he's on meth, but I don't really know for sure. She said he has some way to keep it in the arm of his jacket and hit it while he's sitting next to her. My mom ends up leaving him and throwing herself a pity party until they get back together and he's the best guy in the world... until she gets wasted and freaks out on him. To this day she honestly believes he was having a meth party in their attic and trying to hide people in the house.
When LO was a month old we drove three hours to visit her and she fought with BF and ended up kicking us out of the house because I wasn't going to let her yell in front of my son. Luckily we have a friend who lives in the same town and let us stay with him for the night. I didn't speak to her for days and I ended up forgiving her (she said BF was antagonizing her trying to make her look crazy) but I don't trust her. She's mentally unstable and has even brought up suicide before and that really freaks me out. (there's a whole story for that if your llamas want it) She would already be CO'd but she has my sister. I feel so bad for her. She hasn't been to the doctor since she was 3 months old, is always dirty, and my mom instead spends most of her time on her phone. When she calls she just wants to talk about herself and never asks about LO.
I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. In some way I feel responsible for her because she's not mentally stable but she won't listen to anything I say and she's putting my sister in a horrible position.
What do I do? CO? LC? Please give me a little advice here.