Hey ladies....
I hope you all can figure out who I am without linking by background to this post. I closed my account and opened this one for privacy purposes. I wanted to thank you all for your support, and as funny as it sounds giving me the strength to realize the bullshit going on in my life. The past 2 days have been eye-opening, overwhelming, and emotional. I'm out of the house with my son, and my spine is titanium. I have an attorney who is a pit bull... and is ready for war, but assures me it won't have to go there. I told my duh or duf it was done, passes along my attorneys card, and told him from here on out, anything he wants to discuss can go through him. If he wants to see our son he can come see him whenever he likes but our relationship is done. I also cancelled the baptism, I can't be in a room with any of his enmeshed family members right now. He has called me 76 times in the past 24 hours. He insists he will do ANYTHING to make it better. I am his "life" and he can't live without me or his son. He can't believe I blind sided him like that, but it took that to truly make him realize the point this has come to. He wants to do counselling and work through it. We are a fammmmiLllyyy and NOTHING ELSE matters. He even stopped by where I'm staying... he looked horrible, he was crying and upset. (it broke my heart to Seee him like that but I just kept remembering the hurt he has caused me). he spent an hour holding our son and begging me to talk to him. I left the room and sat with my parents... when the baby started crying I went back into the room and asked him to leave so I could put baby to bed. he cried and begged me to come home with him. He pleaded and got on his knees and promised he would fix it. I asked him to leave again and he did. He has called me every 30 minutes since he left, and all through the night.
I know this is only the beginning. I know this is going to get worse before it gets better. I know when he finally tells his mommmmyyy what's going on shit is going to hit the fan. He will have to tell her in the next day or 2 because the baptism is cancelled.
I feel sad. I feel strong. I feel... relieved.
Thanks again for those of you who shared your stories, encouraged me, gave me strength.. and to those of you who doubted me, thanks for that too.
I will survive this.
I hope you all can figure out who I am without linking by background to this post. I closed my account and opened this one for privacy purposes. I wanted to thank you all for your support, and as funny as it sounds giving me the strength to realize the bullshit going on in my life. The past 2 days have been eye-opening, overwhelming, and emotional. I'm out of the house with my son, and my spine is titanium. I have an attorney who is a pit bull... and is ready for war, but assures me it won't have to go there. I told my duh or duf it was done, passes along my attorneys card, and told him from here on out, anything he wants to discuss can go through him. If he wants to see our son he can come see him whenever he likes but our relationship is done. I also cancelled the baptism, I can't be in a room with any of his enmeshed family members right now. He has called me 76 times in the past 24 hours. He insists he will do ANYTHING to make it better. I am his "life" and he can't live without me or his son. He can't believe I blind sided him like that, but it took that to truly make him realize the point this has come to. He wants to do counselling and work through it. We are a fammmmiLllyyy and NOTHING ELSE matters. He even stopped by where I'm staying... he looked horrible, he was crying and upset. (it broke my heart to Seee him like that but I just kept remembering the hurt he has caused me). he spent an hour holding our son and begging me to talk to him. I left the room and sat with my parents... when the baby started crying I went back into the room and asked him to leave so I could put baby to bed. he cried and begged me to come home with him. He pleaded and got on his knees and promised he would fix it. I asked him to leave again and he did. He has called me every 30 minutes since he left, and all through the night.
I know this is only the beginning. I know this is going to get worse before it gets better. I know when he finally tells his mommmmyyy what's going on shit is going to hit the fan. He will have to tell her in the next day or 2 because the baptism is cancelled.
I feel sad. I feel strong. I feel... relieved.
Thanks again for those of you who shared your stories, encouraged me, gave me strength.. and to those of you who doubted me, thanks for that too.
I will survive this.