I'm trying to decide if I'm just hormonal or if I am being BEC right now.
I'm being induced tomorrow. MIL was supposed to watch the kids, it's been planned for months that when I went into labor, she would be our childcare. She is literally our only option. My family is all CO, and there is no one else. So, we find out last week, (induction has been scheduled for 2 weeks) that they (MIL and FIL) are leaving the day after our induction. They work seasonal, and she pushed for them to take a job hours away, leaving the morning after my induction. Now, at the earliest, I can leave 24 hours after birth. But if I go for an epi, or end up with a c section, I'm up a shit creek. DH will have to be the one to stay home with the kids, so I'll be stuck at the hospital alone the whole time. She knew this, and she thinks it's HILARIOUS!! She laughs and keeps bringing it up, how she has to work the day after. But it's "no big deal, I'll be there the day you have her". Her husband said he had a job in our area, but she made him take the one that's far away and leaving that day, and he was upset about it. It's like she's doing this on purpose. She KNOWS we have no other childcare option.
Also, she hasn't done a single thing for this baby. She hasn't bought it anything, or mentioned doing anything for it, and apparently doesn't give to shits about seeing it. She caters to the people in the family who treat her like shit, and here DH and I are always there for her and spend more time with her and FIL than anyone, and she makes arrangments to make our birth stressful. It was supposed to be so calm.
Plus, the ONLY thing I asked was that she stay at our house with the kids. I don't want them traveling while I'm in labor, it just makes me nervous. Well, her and DH don't give a shit, she's apparently driving them to her house tomorrow after they wake up. It's a 40 minute drive.
I feel like everyone (DH is being a dick right now, but that's a different story) is turning this into what's "easiest" for them and what's "best" for them. And they all keep talking about how it "shouldn't take long. Maybe an hour or two" and it's making me feel like a fucking inconvience and that I need to get in and get out just so they can go back to work. I mean, fuck, I'm going to be home with a newborn in 24 hours, and have NO support. DH said he immediately has to go back to work when we get home, and his schedule is gone for a day and a half, home 10 hours, and gone again. So he will be no help. MIL, who was supposed to go bak to work NEXT month is leaving. I'm just stressed and angry. This happens every time I have a child, it's like everyone ruins it. (usually my CO mom, but since she's CO it's not an issue) MIL and DH were going on earlier about how I"m not "excited" enough, I should be excited or anxious or happy. I feel nothing right now. Just stress about it all and about when I bring her home. They were like "Well, your just nervous then." No, how can I be turning cartwheels for something that is supposed to be exciting and happy, when they are breathing down my throat over how fast it needs to be, or how they need to get to work, etc.
Am I justified? I feel justified, but maybe I'm being a hormonal baby. (Oh, and CO mom has been leaving VM's. I'm afraid someone has told her about tomorrow, so I have that stress added.)