I have thought long and hard about whether or not to post anything but this whole situation is still weighing heavily on me and I need you ladies to provide me with some perspective.
Some background:
My dad is definitely 100% NPD. there is so much I can get into but for the sake of time let's just say he exhibits all major signs but my biggest issues right now are his lack of physical boundaries with his adult children and how he behaved when he met my five month old daughter. he recently has had cancer and a stroke and I am not sure if this is messing with his mind and I am also not sure if it matters what the cause is. my parents recently divorced after being separated for two years.
I recently visited the state where all my family lives (we moved half way across the country because my husband was in the military)
I'm going to throw a TRIGGER out there because how I felt he hypersexualized my daughter and the lack of boundaries he has for me is just fucking gross.
I stayed with him a couple days before visiting other relatives aand he made weird comments. Things that I think he has been doing all along to me but my normal meter is so far broken I wasn't able to see it. He picked up my daughter and mind you she is a little fluffy marshmallow so he says, "oooh you can feel her little boobies!" then laughs. as soon as he did this she was no longer left alone with him for one second. like I literally baby wore her if I had to use the restroom. I can't tell you ladies how many nights I have cried over not just packing my shit and leaving. So I know I am going to get my ass handed to me. I deserve it. all I can say is after growing up with him he has a way of making everything he does seem normal and gas lighting everything.
other things he said were, "you can see her little boobies I won't be able to see them when she gets much older" "when she is 12 I can tell her I saw her boobies and I saw your boobies when you were little"
he also tried to kiss my on my mouth and when I moved away he said oh you used to kids me when you were twelve, put his hand under my breast and said boobies and while I was laying on the floor doing tummy time with my dd he tried to tickle me. on my stomach even after I told him to stop. it was a way to show he was in control I feel.
I feel so disgusted. and guilty and I know the emotion I should probably feel is rage. I am currently seeking out a non unicorny councilor. I can't believe I just sat there and didn't say anything. my dad can be a truly scary person. I don't know if I should tell him that this was wrong. he truly does not see a problem with this. bit his mom is all sorts of messed up.
I need someone to tell me what to do. or am I over reacting? I didn't think I was but then someone mentioned that mouth kissing in some families is considered normal.
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Father with NPD possible TRIGGERS. UPDATE 2, 4, 7 rambling UD 8,9 Screenshots 10
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